Is it possible to fall in love with God and not realize it? Is it possible to spend your life wanting to love God, trying to love God, and not realize just how much you have come to authentically love God?
I think it is. And I think it shows in the most amazing ways.
I think you can love God deeply and not realize it, because you are so intent on how God loves you, how deep and profound and everlasting is that love, that you do not realize how deeply you love God in return. You have equated love for God with splendid deeds, or heroic gestures or profound thoughts. You felt the ideal unattainable, and so kept trying to love God just a tiny bit more. You did not realize that this tiny bit, built up day after day, brought you to mirror that Divine Love, so that you are caught up in the Fire, you are swept away with that indwelling.
And then something happens. It need not even be spiritual. But something happens that awakens your soul to the truth, I love God sooooo much! It is an awesome realization. It is startling and heart warming and satisfying and exhilarating. Because it happened unawares. You were not thinking in terms of that, you were thinking in terms of service or devotion or reverence or respect. You were thinking of doing the right thing so that you could please this Almighty God. You were trying to live with God in mind, and think about God, and study about God. And God swept you up with Love, a Love you could never accomplish on your own, because it too is Divine.
That is my wish, my hope, my prayer for each one of us. That we will awaken in our souls and realize just how much we love God, deeply, passionately, and ardently.
It is a wonderful awakening!
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