Seeking the Deity Within

Recently someone shared with me the difficulty she had seeking  her true self. "I'm afraid to look inside of myself for fear of what I  might find," she admitted.

We often feel that way without realizing it.  We look for fulfillment outside of ourselves when we have a great treasure right inside our soul. Not that we don't need the outside stimulus or activity. Simply put, what it offers us pales to what we already have.

I admit, this is a hard concept to swallow. I too look for recognition, accolades, growth from the outside. I read constantly in an effort to learn more about myself and my journey. I forget that right in my soul is a Deity waiting patiently for me so that we can get to know one another better.

Its like having a great car, gas tank full, all the whistles and stops. And I look for something else to pull that car. Maybe a donkey,or a mule, or even a dog. All the time, the key is in the car, and if I would just sit down and turn the key, I would find the car has its own power to move.

True, all these thoughts require a certain balance.  But I still believe, we forget about the Deity within us, waiting to share with us the secrets of our hearts that even we aren't aware of.

Living that Interior Level with God

Consciousness. That is the fundamental task of the dedicated Christian. I got into a discussion on this recently. One person felt she lacked that consciousness because God didn't come to mind when she was really busy working. We argued back and forth, that consciousness isn't something so external, but rather an intention, a state of awareness, a level of living.

That got us into a discussion on formalized prayers. I believe that the more interior our lives become, the less we need the externals. Thinking back on formal prayers, I'm reminded of the many I once did. I believed that the presence of God was made conscious to me by some repetitious formal prayer repeated over and over again. Now I know better.

Now I know that real devotion comes from so deep within the soul that the externals, though helpful, are not necessary. That intention resides where the voice is silent. That when you have really handed on your life to God, that life continues on a new level, with different needs and different manners of expression.

I'm not saying you don't need external formalized prayer. What I'm saying is, that if that is all you have, you are missing the best part of a relationship with God.