Loss and found

I loved reading Heather King's story of her loss and found. She tells how her lawyer career left her feeling empty inside, betrayed by her colleagues and disappointed in her profession of her hopes and dreams. She then begins to doubt her life, think of all of her struggles, and wonder what was wrong with her that she can not seem to fit in? In the midst of her questioning, she made her first retreat, and a kind director, seeing anguish all over her face, touched her lightly and said, You're very dear to God.  She felt overwhelmed with the gesture, and writes Christ is just the Person who sees you when you feel like you're most invisible. In a way, Christ is just the Person who knows what's in your heart before you do.

There is so much implied by these words. First, that we all have those moments when we wish someone would see the real me...and Jesus is just that person. Secondly, any real search for Jesus, for Divinity, for God, ultimately reveals our real self. For our search isn't just for some 'feel-good' experience; it is looking for that something to steady us when things aren't so certain, finding a "someone" rather than a "something."