I love this quote from Lautréamont: According to what I am told, I am the son of man and woman; This astonishes me...I thought I was more.
We all want more than mere birthright. We all long for something we think of as more. But as much as we long, we also find this longing unsettling, disturbing, difficult. Often we don't know how to fill the void inside, or simple, that void, that unsettling feeling, that thirst hurts too much. We either try to fill it with "things," or we pretend it isn't there. In either case, we push aside that voice that whispers to us.
Bernard Bro says that happens because, as much as we long, we also fear. This is the tragic aspect of the grandeur of the mind. Each of us succeeds perfectly, if she so wishes, in suffocating the questions that disturb her, in anesthetizing them...we have a thirst for happiness, but we are afraid of being thirsty.
It's a good thought for today, to reflect on ways I might be suffocating the questions that trouble me. It's good because if I really believe I'm made for more, I need to face my thirst, and not be afraid.
